Guruphiliac: The Queen of the Holy Hell

Thursday, November 14, 2013

The Queen of the Holy Hell

File under: Amma-All-Over-The-Planet and Satscams

We admit we've been remiss [Ed.note: blame Facebook] in our delay to announce and review what's sure to be an instant classic of anti-cult literature, Gail Tredwell's "Holy Hell." It's hard to put into words just how mind-blowing this book is in light of the popular mythology of Ammachi, the "Hugging Saint" who tours the world pouring millions into foreign banks to do who knows what with.

But we tried:
I have an overwhelming desire to begin this review with the words "holy hell," because that's how I felt after I reached that point in the book where the exposed hypocrisy just keeps piling up like a Arunachala-sized mountain of dung. While none of it really surprised me, all of it was surprising to read, as well as funny, heartfelt, and sincere. Gail is a true modern spiritual hero, so much more than the one she served, who in the end has always only been the scheming beneficiary of the popular idea that she is God. As much as the dark side now lies exposed in the blazing light of public opinion, the real lesson of the book is how Gail's sincerity and inner strength carried her through years of abuse. Some may say she was ill-advised, or even stupid to endure it, but I suspect that it was worth every second to her now. Amma's cruelty and spite have hammered Gail into an outstanding example of triumph over one of the world's most pervasive cults of personality. Hopefully she will serve as an example to others that their "goddess" can at times be little more than a stunningly entitled brat with an apparent personality disorder who essentially spreads lies about nondual realization by her completely fabricated persona. This book will undoubtably become one of the great works of anti-cult biography.


At 11/15/2013 6:37 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I havn't read Gayatri's book yet but it should make very interesting reading.

At 11/15/2013 8:09 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

What can we say? When people are asleep, well they're dozing.
When they're ready to wake up and look around then awareness may kick in.

It took Gail 20 years to enquire...what's going on?
Thats life. If you try and rouse people before they are ready, they'll only snarl. Maybe its best to let sleeping dogs lie!


At 11/17/2013 3:12 AM, Anonymous Holy Hell Amma is a Gangster! said...

The Amma scandal which includes placing an ashram rapist at the head of her organization, Big Swami Balu, along with beating the crap out of her followers will place Ammachi in the Satya Sai Baba hall of fame.

Oh BTW cyber bully Gerald Joe Moreno died at age 39. Defending creepy gurus has its health hazards. Be careful Ammabots enabling criminal gurus is mucho bad karma.

At 11/17/2013 6:40 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am convinced that I am acting as the agent of the guru or I am doing the Lord’s work!
I'm the only one who holds the truth, others havn't got a clue!
All dangerous statements every single one of them!

At 11/19/2013 7:44 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Teaching is a sticky trap - it can entangle both guru and disciple in a shadowy dance. I'm sure you know, it's possible to convince people of almost anything. Especially if they are lonely and sad.

At 12/07/2013 8:59 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Gail describes inadvertently seeing the head honcho swami with his genitals near Ammas face. Very near. Later she describes seeing the impotent rapist jabbing Amma the way he did Gail.
Amazingly, none of the swamis in the org can speak for themselves. They hide behind women for their defense. One wonders at the absolute silence by men at the org. Would any real `son' just sit idly knowing his `brother' was jabbing his `Mother' ? There are no normal reactions seen.
Many Questions arise:
1. Is Amma a victim of sexual abuse and repeated rape by the swamis around her? Everyone knows that any woman who stands up for herself in India is raped again by the courts and the media, then society, and the family.
2. Is it possible she was raped, again and again, and like Gail, and other documented female prisoners, and that she has cooperated with her rapists in exchange for their support? Particularly as sexuality is confused with love here?
It is well known that the men around Amma are arrogant, and look down upon women. Maybe the sexual use of Amma explains why.
3. And what about the girl who was `convinced' to have an abortion and escorted to it?
The org and the people in it are too far gone to perhaps come out of it. I have seen western women kissing the robes and footprints of the rapist swamis when they walk by them, seen the brahmacharinis putting photos of them in their archana books, putting their asanas where they will step on them.
Its a very sick group of people, very unlikely that they will wake up, for sure, they don't want to.
What is amazing is that the community, far away from the filth and lies, has been able to do alot of good work. But this is due to their efforts. They are the hospital that is running, the profitable schools that are running, the clean-up that goes on. They do it, inspired by their conceptions of Amma. That is good.
One wishes that all the volunteers would wake up a little, and see that what they think is self-less service is really profit for the org, which increasingly gives less and less in charitable works.
As someone noted elsewhere, it is not that Amma is giving her wealth away. Where did the recorded amounts of wealth co

At 12/11/2013 10:15 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Finished Gayatri's book. It takes great courage to leave an abusive ashram after sacrificing all your youthful years to the altar of devotion. Then turn around many years later to be shocked at your own lack of discrimination.
A feisty, gutsy read.

At 12/30/2013 7:50 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Anon@ 12/07/2013 8:59 AM,

Agree with you. But the so called hospitals & schools are a MUST for such cults to posture as "doing good for the society" plus get exempted from TAX.

A lot of hindus support such cults with the pathetic excuse " these godmen/godwomen are preventing hindus from getting converted to Christianity". Ironically whatever accusations many Christian clergy face of behind the scenes unsavoury acts are the same being perpetrated by these hindu cultists.

Long time back in Kerala itself some HONEST people did point out she is no messiah as is being propagated. But who cares in India?
Such whistle blowers are at enormous risk as it is huge amounts of money that is involved. Money & power over people.

Ditto with art of living cult founder too. The "devil citing the Scriptures to suit its purpose".

At 1/16/2014 7:20 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Shenanigans‎ and tomfoolery are a good description of what goes on in the ashram.
The guru scoffs fishballs and the common folk, the hoypoloi eat boiled rice and vegetable slops.

At 2/01/2014 3:07 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello all,

Does anyone has experience with 'the other Amma' Karunamayi?
Is she clean or is she and her org a similar scam, only smaller than MA?
The setup seems quite similar.


At 2/27/2014 1:50 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Karunamayi is an even bigger scam. There is several scandals involving money and money laundry. She just talks Hindu nonsense and makes converts. She hates Christianity and Amma(Ammatchi) is still incomperably better than her.

At 3/03/2014 3:35 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Jody

You have stopped writing about HH Sri Sri Ravishanker,Have you finally accepted the fact that he is indeed a great Guru and have made peace with him?

At 3/03/2014 3:41 PM, Blogger guruphiliac said...

Sri Sri's "Holy Hell" moment will come, and then folks will see he's another sham guru like Ammachi.

At 3/03/2014 3:49 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

70,000 tweets on Gurujis latest event Twitter Townhall, what do you have to say about that?

At 5/09/2014 1:24 AM, Blogger A. H. said...

All is God. This is the realization that accompanies nondual recognition. Is Amma not just God doing what God does? Are there any other players in this dream?

At 5/09/2014 8:44 AM, Blogger guruphiliac said...

All is God. Amma being a personality-disordered monster is included in this. That still no reason to help folks to know the truth that there are many better places to get spiritual guidance besides her.

At 2/19/2016 7:24 AM, Blogger Invigilator said...

If 'All is God' is true, then God is also hell, evil, deception, lies and every terrible crime ever committed is also God. One might as well say with no less meaning 'All is Energy', 'All is Everything' 'All is all'. This is a vicious circle which actually It makes no real sense at all. See why here GOD IS EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING IS GOD? The great generalization and its logical consequences examined at

At 10/21/2019 5:05 PM, Blogger ecoecho said...

the etymology of God is from the Indo-European word for Bull just as Brahman means Bull. think Europa was raped by a Bull and you start to understand God.


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